Random therapy!

Ok with so many ups and downs recently, my life was put into perspective and I realized that if you don't make it happen it never will. July was the month I started living life instead of working to live. My zest for adventure is growing day by day and I should share all the fun I've had so far. Those that know me from the Motherland will know that I've always been an active person, climbing trees, running circles round most people and generally taking everything life throws at me in my stride. Well the real Lindsay just came out of hibernation and is back with a vengeance.

Since losing my job and being asked for a divorce I didn't know how much more I could take, I felt very alone, ashamed and couldn't understand why people act the way they do. My dear friends and family I owe so much; you have all been there solid rocks and know that it is very much appreciated. Unfortunately until now I felt that this was my personal internal battle and that I had to figure out what was wrong with me. I am coming to terms with the fact that I have my flaws but ultimately this is not about me. I hope that in the end I will continue to grow as a person and that you are all proud and honored to know me.

In this short period of personal growth I have done so many things that it's hard to figure out where I found the time. Like I always say though the busy man has time for everything and the lazy man has time for nothing!! Since the end of April and the realization that the past few months have been nothing like I thought I threw myself into work. It was the only sense of normalcy I had (or so I thought). 3 weeks after the shocking news I lost my job. One sucker punch after another and it truly tests your faith and makes you wonder what you've done to people. I couldn't believe that I was being punished after all I had put in to the care of my patients, the center and my lifeline at this point. I was devastated to say the least to the point where I turned to less than ideal ways to cope. I think the hardest part for me was the fact I was never able to say goodbye to my patients (especially the ones I had grown so close with over the years) and the staff. I had very little information on what I was accused of, which makes it hard to defend oneself and all at a time when I probably wasn't sure of myself anyhow with my recent personal life.

I hold no grudges with what happened as I truly believe things happen for a reason and that I am meant to go on to bigger and better things - who knows! I feel that the plan for me is to do great things what they are I'm still trying to figure out but I know deep down I was put here to touch many lives (one way or another). This holds true for Pete and I, it may seem like I'm not dealing with the situation but I am please realize that but I don't hate him for what happened, it would serve no purpose. Am I disappointed? I think we both are! I don't want my friends or family to dislike him and I understand that is a hard request to make right now but if I can forgive and move on with my life, please find it in your hearts to do the same.

Well enough for now there are many stories to tell so check out my posts, they may take me awhile so keep checking!