Gone Fishing

To be completely honest I never fully understood the thrill of fishing. I felt like it was an old man sport as they had hours of time because they were too old to do anything else. How wrong was I!! Today I had the blinkers ripped off and my eyes opened. Fortunately I was with my all time favorite 2 fishermen in the USA, Brandon and Brent. There would be only 3 others who may be better in my eyes, my beloved late Grandfather, my Dad and my sweetheart of an older brother, Anthony.



When we first set off I was planning to lie on the front of the boat and sunbathe - why not it was a gorgeous sunny afternoon. They had other plans for me and within 10 minutes of being out on the ocean a rod was thrust in to my hands. Clueless I think I tried hooking them more than any fish. They taught me how to cast and while they were trying to snag fish (I say trying as it truly was dead out there, no fish biting) The calm waters helped me practice and by the time we moved on to a better position, I was feeling really good about my casting. Just in time for Brandon to shout "I got one" The excitement began, I could see the tension on the rod, he was gently reeling the slippery one in and then wham finally in a net and on the deck. The next part was a little hard as he jumped all over the deck until they took care of the "humpy" with a quick blow to the head.

Bad Days!

Why is it when you think things seem to be going ok you are hit with a bad day. It comes out of nowhere or so it feels and sucker punches you right in the gut. Today was one of those days and it really made me feel truly low and almost a little pathetic. Don't ask me why it had such an impact as I'm really not sure but did I feel it by the early evening.

So I'm sure my 5am wake up after a small amount of sleep did not help the situation but in order to be at work on time and take care of the puppies it was necessary. To be honest it really didn't feel too bad waking up at 5am but at 6am when I reversed out of my drive way straight into my neighbors car I knew the day was going down the drain!! The sound of crunching cars is not pleasant and I truly recommend that people don't experiment to find out. Stopping everything I decided to check it out before heading on to work. The damage didn't seem too bad on either car so I continued on to work. My rear fender is pretty much cracked and needs to be replaced and my neighbor has some dings. I want to let everyone know that I didn't just hit and run but I felt at 6am he wouldn't appreciate me waking him up to say "hey, good morning; I reversed into your car". I did however call and leave a message letting him know that I would stop by after work and check if there was any damage I had missed.

So I head into work and run my tail off! Sometimes its easier than delegating if you follow my drift. Lunch was a chance for me to eat and nap and then woo hoo only 2 hours left before I could head home or so I thought. The sun was shining on me today that's for sure as 20 minutes before I'm heading out the door to my friends graduation; I was told my lead therapist someone I truly respect and feel is awesome; hurt his back and needed to head home. They gave me the option to stay and help which would be fine any other night. The problem can you really say no to someone who looks crippled? The answer "No" or at least I can't! So close to 12 hours later I headed out the door for my hour drive home, needless to say subdued would be an understatement.

A few glasses of wine, some pizza and radishes, good company and the chance to write it all down I'm feeling a little better. Now for additional company to arrive and I'll be set to go!

Lazying on a Sunday afternoon!

I truly understand why the Lord made the Sabbath day a day of rest. Unfortunately I think like many others I forget this. So when it comes around and I actually take time to enjoy the day I realize that this should be done more often. Today was one of those days and even though I didn't rest and do nothing, it was a lazier day than I have had in awhile. I accomplished a lot but at a relaxed pace. I was able to nap, run and hang out with great company without feeling rushed or under the gun. I sat on my deck for the first time in what seemed like forever and soaked up some sun while sipping on a cold corona.

So here's to lazy sunday's people - Cheers!

Hats!!

So here it is " I love hats!" I don't know why I have such an obsession with them as most of the time they are too big for me (I have a small head - crammed with knowledge though!!)

I think part of it is I can be a totally different person in a hat. I don't worry about my hair as we all know that it is very fine, probably another reason hats don't always fit.

Who knows I think I would rather have a hat than jewellery, they transform a person were as jewellery draws people in for a few minutes if your lucky. Jewellery is not always necessarily seen but a hat is there, in your face!!

(Apologies for the blurry picture it was a wild night!!)

The other part of hats is they give insight to a person almost instantly!

Random therapy!

Ok with so many ups and downs recently, my life was put into perspective and I realized that if you don't make it happen it never will. July was the month I started living life instead of working to live. My zest for adventure is growing day by day and I should share all the fun I've had so far. Those that know me from the Motherland will know that I've always been an active person, climbing trees, running circles round most people and generally taking everything life throws at me in my stride. Well the real Lindsay just came out of hibernation and is back with a vengeance.

Since losing my job and being asked for a divorce I didn't know how much more I could take, I felt very alone, ashamed and couldn't understand why people act the way they do. My dear friends and family I owe so much; you have all been there solid rocks and know that it is very much appreciated. Unfortunately until now I felt that this was my personal internal battle and that I had to figure out what was wrong with me. I am coming to terms with the fact that I have my flaws but ultimately this is not about me. I hope that in the end I will continue to grow as a person and that you are all proud and honored to know me.

In this short period of personal growth I have done so many things that it's hard to figure out where I found the time. Like I always say though the busy man has time for everything and the lazy man has time for nothing!! Since the end of April and the realization that the past few months have been nothing like I thought I threw myself into work. It was the only sense of normalcy I had (or so I thought). 3 weeks after the shocking news I lost my job. One sucker punch after another and it truly tests your faith and makes you wonder what you've done to people. I couldn't believe that I was being punished after all I had put in to the care of my patients, the center and my lifeline at this point. I was devastated to say the least to the point where I turned to less than ideal ways to cope. I think the hardest part for me was the fact I was never able to say goodbye to my patients (especially the ones I had grown so close with over the years) and the staff. I had very little information on what I was accused of, which makes it hard to defend oneself and all at a time when I probably wasn't sure of myself anyhow with my recent personal life.

I hold no grudges with what happened as I truly believe things happen for a reason and that I am meant to go on to bigger and better things - who knows! I feel that the plan for me is to do great things what they are I'm still trying to figure out but I know deep down I was put here to touch many lives (one way or another). This holds true for Pete and I, it may seem like I'm not dealing with the situation but I am please realize that but I don't hate him for what happened, it would serve no purpose. Am I disappointed? I think we both are! I don't want my friends or family to dislike him and I understand that is a hard request to make right now but if I can forgive and move on with my life, please find it in your hearts to do the same.

Well enough for now there are many stories to tell so check out my posts, they may take me awhile so keep checking!

Where to start?

Here goes! A new month and with that comes a fresh start!

This morning I woke up early and finally conquered my itunes libary before running the Anacortes Art Dash 10K! My best time ever I do believe; 6.2 miles in 54minutes 47 seconds -under a 9 minute mile! Yes I know I'm a little proud ;)

I feel a high five should go out to all the runners there though as they all made it happen - here's to you!